Lost in my dreams

So I have been having a whole mixture of dreams, and to be honest, I really wonder what it all means sometimes. Lately, maybe it's because I really miss my GZ but, I have been dreaming that he has come home but before all that we had to go through a very lengthy process. I guess I'm having these kind of dreams because I feel that this is what it is going to take. I just wish it would hurry up and happen. It has been almost going on two years. Since then I have had to deal with all the DRAMA that has gone on. Sometimes I get frustrated and feel as if I want out but in the long run I know that he is the one I want to be with and feel that we will sometime soon be together again. Is this me being naive? Or is this what they call wishful thinking? Who knows, I just can never imagine myself with anyone else. Tell you something else, I can't see anyone else playing the "daddy" role for my kids. I would never be able to get used to that idea. Funny how I thought I had my life all planned out for me and in a split of a second it came tumbling down. Also, sometimes I just don't understand certain family members of his. I just don't understand how they can really claim to care for him but yet feed him a lot of BS that drives him nuts! Funny thing is he is someone dumb enough to believe it. I guess! But even so, I still continue to do what I shall and be by his side. I hope it's not all in vain! I hope one day he realizes exactly what we have. You know I have run into people I went to school with(Middle School) and they all get really shocked to know that we are still together. Funny how things work out, fate?